I realized that my analogy works both ways, and that you know exactly how I feel. I appreciate your effort, it really means a lot to me.

Basically what you've told me is that I'm in a lose-lose situation. The best I can do is suppress my emotions and get on with life. That's not so bad, I guess. It's what I've been doing all along. I hate my situation no less, and I am picked at by despair no less, but...

But nothing. I am numb. I've been numb and I'll keep being numb until she or Lethe lets me stop. I can't get over that. I've got one foot in the door to happiness, and the other stuck in a rusty old bear trap. The closer I get, the more I move, the more it hurts. I can hardly type it hurts so much, but it's only like this when someone points out how hopeless my situation is. I'm not free. I'll never be free of this, and I know it, and I'm afraid like you wouldn't believe of what the future holds.

There's no brightness or sunshine for me to end this with. The only warmth I've got, the only thing that isn't superficial, is that you, my friend, tried. That's all I have to sustain me, so thank you for it. Thank you for everything.