Status update: I feel ill.

Drew is gone. He left yesterday, or rather two days ago.
Denny is leaving Friday. I'm going to the beach with him tomorrow morning, and then I won't see him until fall break, if not later.
TJ leaves on the 28th. That means that next Wednesday the wavelength is stretched thin for awhile.
Ryan has until early September. I probably won't see him again until next summer.

Party? Sure, why not.
I think the it's at Lauren's mother's house. Go down Red Bug until it turns into Mitchell Hammock. Keep going until it ends. The cross road will be Lockwood. Turn right onto Lockwood. Go down for about three or four miles past the tennis courts (which will be on the right). Turn right on to West Riviera Blvd. The third road on the right will be Parker Canal Ct. Turn right onto it. Lauren's is the first house on the left. It will hopefully have cars in front of it.

Again.

Proceed down Red Bug Lake Road.
Proceed down Mitchell Hammock.
Right on to Lockwood.
Right on to West Riviera.
Right on to Parker Canal.
Left in to first house.

Let me welcome you officially to my zoo. There's only one animal on exhibit. Don't get too close to the cage, because he bites. Don't inhale too deeply, because he smells. Don't make eye contact. Trust me.

My comment service disappeared. I'm not planning on finding a new provider.

Come to think of it, I don't think I'm going to post anymore. This blog is my only remaining outlet, and its price is the pain of others. I'm sorry Katie. I'm sorry Mike. I'm sorry to anyone else who tried to learn something here and found that there was nothing but anger. I promise that's not who I am, but the past can be a bitter enemy.

Mike has stated that he can never really trust me, just because of something in the past that he never trusted me about. I'll tell you some day the only reason you have not to trust me, and maybe you'll find it as sad as I do.

Katie... The only thing Katie ever did to me was refuse to respond, was keep her feelings to herself. I've never understood it, and I've burned out time and time again trying to. Everything negative that I feel about myself is reflected in her, and I think that might be the real reason. She is brilliant and humble, and sees through me because she's the only person to whom I am forever and consistently open. She's the only person to whom I am forever and consistently uninteresting. It's always been just me, just my problems, Katie, and I'm sorry if I ever made you doubt that. I don't expect reciprocation; I simply accept you.

I miss you, Jill.